another late night...
working on some music. i don't have long to play at this point. it's just about 2am...my nightly cut-off time. due to an inflated electric bill i am grounded by strict house rules. honestly, it's maddening. music is an impulse based animal. if i don't have the freedom to bend to those impulses, it takes the feeling out of the whole process.
i've been cracking away at a little weekend project (that's taking longer than a weekend). i think it could be something funky to listen to, but man...i can't wait until my recording rig is up to spec. i'm doing everything the long way. there is no convenience to be found in my technology. the fact that there IS technology at my disposal is why i brave the tedium. less than 4 months ago i was wishing for just enough to allow me to project my creativity out to the world. now i have "just enough"...but it's not. the cycle of wanting doesn't end i suppose, it just resets.
another piece of the puzzle in the books, i'll be heading off to bed soon. one can only hope that whoever listens "gets" what i'm trying to do here. one can only hope that if no one does "get" it, i'm not as saddened as i have been in the past. finding that key demo that connects with what you do artistically is difficult. i seek love as though i have never known it...and when i get it, it's likely i'll just wish for more than love.
the cycle of wanting does not end. it just resets, i suppose.
shine.
custamato~
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I know 'all I need'
and that I'm never going to get it.
Because
I know that the fact that I have enough time to sit down and list what it is I don't have
means I want for nothing in life.
I sometimes wonder, if I had less, would that force me to do and become more?
Would I gain perspective,
Or would I still want more but have less?
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