one never knows...

a good friend of mine recently found out something. he found out that the kind of girl he wants does in fact exist.

back on my end, i find myself less and less enchanted with the idea of a dream girl...a soul mate, you might say. in fact, the concept of a significant other is dull and idealized to me. and before someone jumps off the cliff with their poor understanding of english comprehension...no, i don't think that i can't get a girlfriend. i just don't want to jump through hoops for one. i'm not a circus seal-



allow me to draw you a comparison...

one time, years ago, i met a few members of the roots crew. at the time i was big into the roots' music. i had all their albums.



it didn't take long for all that to change...


they were absolute pricks and i never felt the same about them or their music. i sold off all of my roots cds...and to this day i can't get into them.


in laymen's for the poor english comp' people:

my analogy means that i'm so turned off by my experiences with "women", that i have no interest in a relationship or "love". things that could be simple and breezy are made into complex problems with no logical solutions.

when i was younger that was ok.

however, the girls i like now have breast, secondary sex characteristics, and they're of legal drinking age.

so...not really ok anymore.


and hey, while i'm on the subject i'll let you ladies in on a little secret: men DON'T like games.

*gasp*

i know! shocked, huh?!

yea, we hate 'em. which is a direct conflict of interest because you guys live by them. tsk tsk...what to do? how about...not playing them? they're meaningless because they aren't designed to accomplish anything. don't you think that's a little bazaar? a game with no point? no object...or reasoning? no set rules, structure or direction?

that doesn't sound like fun at all. but i guess if you can change the rules anytime you want...



regardless, i can't help but be happy for my friend. i hope things work better for him than they did for me. the beauty of a new relationship is so easily lost. the new person you meet doesn't know what you've been through before they came along. i find it odd that they usually don't have enough respect for another human being to take that into consideration, and not play with their emotions.

of course, if the world were filled with straight-shooters and honest folks there would be world peace, wouldn't there?

sadly a lie is more important than a life.

when deception and manipulation are the signs of the time, it's next to impossible at times to find even basic positive traits in a female. if you find them...actually i don't know what happens if you find them.




custamato~